Why is it hurt now?
Why it has to be tonite to overwhelmed by everything over my past?
It hurts when I remember the day I met him
It hurts when I remember those day when I was very happy with them.
It hurts when the stupid mistake is letting go the right guy for a guy that ruined everything - life, frenship, loveship, relationship.
It hurts when today, is not the same day I woke up and breathe last year.
To feel that excitement even though it wasnt the best day of my life, but I woke up with hope and smile. Today, I woke with a hopeless spirit. Very hopeless.
There is nothing that can make me smile and not even close to that.
It hurts when 9 days is not enough to fix everything before the date.
It hurts when I cant please myself and make myself happy when the birthday is coming.
A birthday should be very personal
It's not about how wondering many wishes, how many presents, how many busy people -frens and families are text-ing u once in a year.
It's not about them..
It's about u, yourself
The achievement in life
The mission and vision to bring to the next chapter of life path
The spirits and happy moments..
The happiness to remember, the sadness to leave behind
But when all the sadness should just leave behind, and happiness is merely null, then I feel like I'm in a black hole. Nothing. No air, no gravitiy, no momentum, just me and the blackhole.
I just need a blaze of hope to lead me to the path
I just wish for a miracle to succumb all the nulls and sadness
I wish.. :(
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