darkside 2 - life is not about what we want

A fren told me, life is not about what we want, but it is about what we going through. Take it, or leave it.

This is one of the questions and i need the solution.

In my situation, I cant leave it, I have to take it.
Running away from problems is not a smart solution for me in this problem.
This is not a simple problem as simple as when u dealing with your heart and emotion everytime u broke up. I know easily how to leave it when I'm mending my own broken heart when a relationship doesnt work as planned, or a beloved frens is backstabbing u, or anything related with emotions and hearts. And I am proud of myself on how I deal with it. Seems like my heart does obey what instruction my mind has given. But when my mind cant even gave any instruction, then everything is messed up specially when the heart is totally stupid and have no use at all when dealing with problems.

This is sumthing big that no matter how hard u try to runaway, and to forget what was happening they will keep on haunting u, in your sleep, at your conscious mind, anywhere anytime. No matter how good are u trying to fake the happiness and yes, u succeed, it wont change the inner self. Maybe it brings a very good lie to your presence and appearence, but believe me, when it comes to reality, only u know how it feels. U can lie u can fake anybody else, but the person that is hard to please is yourself.

U guys can read this the same thing. Coz obviously this blog will keep on asking and even if there is any answers, for me there is no perfect answers or right or wrong answers for that.. I need a solution instead.

Sumtime, I just want to runaway, to an isolated place where i can meet new people. Leaving all behind. leaving a dear family, frens and life here. Doesnt matter it is for better or worst life, I just want it brand new. See I told u that this is about my mindset. I am guilty for being like this. Everytime I fail to do one thing, I just throw it and have a brand new thing and start all over again. I do not try to fix it. Or maybe I do not try to fix it at all? I really dont know..

Sumtime I want to runaway and never return that one day when I came back everybody has forget about me, and the story of my life is varnished.. But does it works? I know it just makes thing go from bad to worst. That is not an achievement in life that I want. That atleast when I get old, I am proud of what I'm doing. That is no way I can proud of being me if I ever did that.

Seriously, I do not know what else and what path should I take to that life I want. Or atleast the life I'm having before. Show me, and I can be very thankful. Only the path and I know I can lead my own way.